Recently someone mentioned the word blog rather randomly… Haven’t heard of the word in a while. I think no one read these stuff these days. I can’t rem the last time I read someone’s blog. Now mostly FB or chirps of a one liner. Lagi best recent another new thing called Path. Why do we need to come up with so many versions of the same thing? Haiz…
The reminder led me to visit Rolzology. Wow it’s like a walk down memory lane of my life. Made me miss waigong as revisited my journey with him. I discovered that I haven’t changed much in the things I enjoy in life. At certain point I wonder, huh did I wrote that? 
I realised that I have also became some what less articulated. Over the years i have lost good friends to BF/GF, marriages and migration. The most painful ones was one to an iphone and the other haiz…. I really treasured the quality time and the convos we have had but guess I gotta just take it as it is. So now, with fewer good friends to spar raw thoughts with, which is very sad, I thank God He still gave me a few. They are gems that sparkle in my life! Haiz… Maybe there is a place for blog still. Maybe just to let out cuz it gets stuffy when we keep it all inside.
God I trust that all good things come from You. Whatever it may be, Lord grant me Your loving Grace. For I know it’ll all be sufficient for me. 
Just what on earth is the forbidden fruit up to introducing the concept of a phone concierge? Getting people to talk to their phone and getting to know the user in a subtle and indirect way. Most people probably wouldn’t mind if someone express interest and is willing to study you; to know you better. In fact it’s a rather sexy concept in a world of superficiality.
I believe there is no free meal in the world. Like how I value the insights gained from careful observing or studying a person’s social interaction. How in that we can derive preferences. It is true that these days, most people have trouble clearly articulating what they really want or need. Somehow these innate motivation and drives can be hidden from self-consciousness.
So be mindful with Sir-i. He’s rightfully spying on you. And we know it is not a hidden fact. 
Havent blog for the longest time..! Not that I havent been pondering just that thoughts are sometimes so fleeting and moments of awakening so sacred that it’s like spotting a wonderful sight out of the blue without a camera. And that all I can do is to savor the moment. Breath in deep, exhale, a wide grin across my face.
Hasn’t been a easy month. Seems like alot of things I have to deal with for the first time. It was hard work and most importantly HEART work as I yanked me out of myself.
Although different experience left me with different thoughts, I felt worn out physically, mentally and emotionally…
But I felt alive. I felt like I have truly live.
That as if to truly live is to let go and let Him. I felt satisfied.
Felt so touched by sincere, bottom of the heart words. With no strings attached. Just appreciating you for who you are.
Realised I am highly critical of myself. The recent courses I attended told me that it’s Maladaptive thoughts/self talk. That night I decided to go for a ride. Something which I have laid off for quite a while. Was kinda moody tt night and aft which I discover it was a mix of pms. But it turned out to be refreshing as I talk to myself, talk to God and sensing His responses.
Am truly thankful for all You have been Lord.
All of my days, all of my seasons. You are still God. I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship… ~
